the end.

So this has been a very bad day for me....but nonetheless I can feel the raging and it has been an exhausting tug-of-war today.
Anyway..."at the end. of.my.rope. is probably a good explanation of where I am in life right now.  Just done.
I was reflecting a little bit on all of it today and I saw a picture in my mind......I assume God showed this to me.   I was on a very high cliff and and I was dangling from a rope....it was knotted..kinda like those ropes you climb in gym class.
I was obviously at the very end and I kept looking down to see where I would land if I let go.  At first all I could see was fog or maybe clouds passing under me.  That was not very encouraging.
I climbed up the rope a bit and just hugged and it closed my eyes.   Then in the quietness I heard "all you have to do is let go...Im right here" I didnt open my eyes but I "saw" Him with his arms open wide and a smile that can only be described as patiently anxious....  He was waiting on me but excited for when I do let go.
I suddenly turned my attention to the rope and noticed that my hands weren't blistered and I had just enough strength to hold on.   I thought to myself "why would you give me strength to hold on to a rope that you want me to let go of?" I would assume He would stand there knowing I would lose strength eventually and be there to catch me when I lose my grip.  No.  He simply said, "the choice is yours"
Thats it...
What does it look like to let go....like really let go?  I think sometimes we say we have let go but we really havent.. I know I am at fault.
What does it look like to let go?