Tongue Tied

So this is my first blog....ever.  I have never been one to be open up enough to sit down and actually write my thoughts and inner battles down for others to see.  Most blogs are fun and light hearted. I have chosen this blog to be more focused on more serious matters and maybe what the Lord is doing in my heart......and what better time to start but now :)

I feel like I have a lot to say but I also feel like this is a time in life where I need to talk less....much less.  Seems like there is a little too much going on in this heart of mine and when I open my mouth....good things dont come out...here it is more controlled and filtered. :)

I seem to be hurting people with my words lately and it is totally not intentional.  Its just whats happening.  By the time I have said what I have said, its already too late. Doh! ugh!  seriously? Did that JUST come out of my mouth?!   This continuous pattern has gripped my attention and caused me to look at  the situation with concern. I was coming home from church tonight and this verse kept coming to my mind over and over.... "I will watch my ways and keep my tongue from sin; I will put a muzzle on my mouth as long as the wicked are in my presence"  I mostly focused on the muzzle part.......yes a muzzle.  A little harsh yes but the thing is, is that the people I love are in my presence so to me its that much more important to do whatever it takes me keep my tongue from sinning.  I dont feel like the Lord is saying "Hey..you...wear a muzzle"  But I do feel like the Lord is saying "Lets do less talking for a while"  Not too long ago the Lord asked me to quiet my heart before Him....I believe this is part of it.  
I will admit that this will be extremely uncomfortable for me......to just stand there and not say much is.....well I cant even put words to it.  But it makes me cringe.  I dont like it.  
There is a verse in Job that I like a lot and for now it sums everything up.  "Teach me, and I will be quiet; show me where I have been wrong.   And so it begins.